Showing posts from June, 2014

The one where I keep her up late.

To my amazing 3 year old:

Some nights I'm selfish. You should be sleeping. We pick out 2 bedtime stories but we read far more. You love the book I wrote for you about your first year and my pregnancy with you. We look at the ultrasounds and the pictures I spent hours pawing through when I should have been working and you tell me your story since we've read it so many times and my heart overflows with love. So I keep you up.

When we get into bed and I ask you your favorite part of the day and you always surprise me with what you liked the most, I keep you up.

When we talk about what we are thankful for and every single night you wrap your arms around my neck and tell me you are thankful for me and then go on to list every relative you can think of, I keep you up.

When sometimes you tell me I'm your favorite Alex, I don't correct you and say  I'm your mommy, I just keep you up.

As you reach for me to hold my hand sometimes as you fall asleep I remember you won't alway…

The one where you say goodbye to a friend.

Today is a hard day. Today I say goodbye to my dog of 10 years, Wiener. I remember driving to the pet shop that used to be in St. Clair on a tip from a coworker that there was a really unique crossbreed of dog there. I remember walking in and locking eyes with her. Her ears were bigger than her whole body. She had the biggest blue eyes.

She was just a tiny, sweet girl. Always timid. Never mean. She loved everyone she came into contact with. After she got out her "big dog" barks and growls, she would just annoy you to death with incessant kisses and contact. Through the years she saw me through some of the biggest ups and downs in my life and I can't say enough how much I will miss her. It will be weird not hearing her obsessively itch her belly. It will be weird not hearing her bark. 2 days ago her endless seizures started and I watched her body and brain fail her. She took care of me and now it's time to take care of her and end her suffering. Her favorite thing in…